Poof. It's the last week of July and while we're all expecting to see smoked filled air with a burning smell lingering around us from the start of August, we are unfrotunately tied down with numerous quizes and test to accomplish before we embrace the beauty of our exams and yeah, the smoke too =\.
This is definitely not an easy week for us with 2 presentations and 3 important quizzes awaiting for us when the week begins. Yesterday itself, almost all of us had ISSUES with either with another person or on ourselves. It's not a common sight, but it is definitely a rare sight within the few of us. Well, stress from school is causing us to be on our nerves and get triggered off with the slightest bit of commotion. Let's just look forward for the weekends.
For the past few days, have been pretty obsessed with Harry Potter. I'm reading the whole series all over again because I've just gotten my hands on the final book. Yeah, pretty slow to get it at this point of time, but it's really cheap. It only cost my sister $9.90. =) so, i think it deserve the wait. As a result of this, I decided to start from book 1 and finish all the way to the last book, which is book 7. At least i'll feel a sense of accomplishment when i complete the whole series. Especially for this period of time, Harry Potter have successfully made me de-stress and made me feel a whole lot better. It just captivate you to read further and it kinda block of the external pressure and expectations. Well, though there is still this small part that contains guilt as i'm suppose to study and not read. but, that was casted away pretty easily. =)
Tuesday, ISP presentation is finally over. 6 long weeks of Social Psychology. Well, it wasn't like WOW. but i think the only thing that i brought back home with me was the pro social behaviour of people and the way and how they will react to certain emergencies and situations. All and all, i will still stick to my stand, IS (Interdisciplinary Studies) will be boring unless you've got your friends to make it right.
Wednesday Thermodynamics presentation was indeed one-of-a-kind. We did presented, but it a really weird and funny way. All the 5 of us sat around a rectangle table with a laptop on the table and we sat dow and present. Kinda funny, but it just shows the different expectations of a lecturer. An engineering lecturer or a business/media lecturer. Yeah, kudos to gay bro Shirin. Without him drawing up the report for us, we would have gone even more crankier. thanks bro. =)
yeah. till then peeps.
stay chilled and look forward to the weekends. =D
PS: I want to watch THE MUMMY.
chester.
Had a short conversation with Sojini about some of the ongoing stuff i'm experiencing this days. All of a sudden i just felt like settling everything.
I was on the bus and at an abrupt moment, i realised that I will be laying my ass in ubin this friday, i will be out to celebrate my brother's birthday tomorrow, which will take up my Thursday and I have so much to accomplish to save that buttock of mine from those deadlines! Stupid report and yeeyewseng assignment. I feel so dumb that i couldn't even understand what his tutorial questions are and moreover, even know how to do it! I can easily say, "Don't submit LOR". Yes, with a even higher risk of failing the module (considering that i've not been doing well in all his stuff) when i'm already trying so hard not to give him a chance to get me debarred for his module.
Yes, instead of sitting here ranting about how lousy i am and situations are, i should be doing my work. ohwell. i'm really really lost in the assignments i have. Stress. I've requested kindly for an extension for a deadline for the submission of the report, let's hope she approves it. Now, it's time for bed and i'll need to get a haircut tml.
before i call it a day,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO, FARHAN
(SURATH, SOJINI AND MYSELF ARE UNDER YOU BLOCK WAITING FOR YOU) =D
Took up Social Psychology this semester. Interestingly, we're gonna go down town to find out how helpful Singaporeans are. How are we going to go about do it? We'll be pretending to be someone stuck in the toilet because there isn't toilet paper in the cubical. Hence, we will shout for help and we will see how many Singaporeans actually help us get toilet paper. lol. this might sound really silly and stupid, but on the flipside, i think the experiment results will be kinda interesting.
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results are out!
In town (Wisma),
- 16 out of 20 ladies offered us toilet paper
- 3 out of 20 man offered us toilet paper
In the Heartlands (Junction 8)
- 5 out of 20 ladies gave us toilet paper
- 4 out of 20 man gave us toilet paper
haha, contrasting experiment results. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MEN?! Singapore men are selfish. lol
Now, i need to get the report drawn up..
when was the last time you fought for something that you really wanted? i couldnt remember what was the last time that i worked for something so hard that i achieved it. Pretty sad i guess, it can be assumed as though as i have everything that i want or i have no aim in life. ohwell, tennis tennis.
that question actually pop-ed up on my mind after i going for Sojini's Dancesport Competition. She was really really impressive and i was like 'woah' when i saw her dancing. Good Job Girl! all you efforts didn't go down to the drain! you did yourself and the school proud. Ngee Ann Dance Sport did exceptionally well and the school have clinched many top few awards. Great job everyone!
Damn, me and farhan should've taken a photo with her in her dress, but, i got a replacement! =)
Energy - 一直到最后
掌声响起全世界也让我拥有 灯光熄灭却是无尽的没落 环顾身边所有人都在我左右 而这种感觉能够继续多久 眼前出现一个巨大的浪头 挺不住的向后退站不住的被卷走 谁是真正的朋友当一切经过 还跟着你的是我当你觉得什么都没有 别忘记我的心放在你手中当泪水流过 还陪着你的是我当所有人都转过头 别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后 掌声响起全世界也让我拥有 灯光熄灭却是无尽的没落 环顾身边所有人都在我左右 而这种感觉能够继续多久 眼前出现一个巨大的浪头 挺不住的向后退站不住的被卷走 谁是真正的朋友当一切经过 还跟着你的是我当你觉得什么都没有 别忘记我的心放在你手中当泪水流过 还陪着你的是我当所有人都转过头 别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后 当一切 当一切经过还跟着你的是我 当你觉得什么都没有 别忘记我的心放在你手中 当泪水流过还陪着你的是我 当所有人都转过头 别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后
每当我在 ipod 上听到 Energy 的‘一直到最后’，心中就会有一中说不出口的感觉。这种感觉让我想起二零零六年的七月，大家一起拥抱和哭泣的话面。是我太天真吗？我心中有一种说不出来的冲动，想和大家一起回到那是后，一起在一起的事玩闹，在bubble tea 的游乐园一起说心事，一起打发时间。我们当时是那么的单纯。
可是，时间不饶人，一转眼，我们已经毕业了两年。我对你们的认识慢慢的也疏远了。一想起这一點心里就酸酸的。我知道这是我们人生一定要近过的，可是我还是有那么一点点的自私，希望我们大家还能想以前一样，那么的情切，没有那陌生的感觉。我希望这不时我一向亲缘的感觉。有了新朋友，老朋友跟一定要珍惜啊.
大家，我们一起把我们对比此的友情奔上我们一想不到的经界吧。只要我们都有一样的目标，十年，二十年后，都会一起回味我们一起创照的时光的。
让我们一起把那首歌给做到好吗？
请看看我们的‘猪斯拉’所写的话
This week,
- I missed the first day of school just because i wanted to complete my "Er Zuo Ju 2 Wen" just before school starts. Hence, i unknowingly watched through the wee mornings and only realised that I have passed sleeping time and have to pretend to sleep when i hear my mum waking up from her sleep.
- I went to catch 'Get Smart' with Surath, Farhan and Janet. It was fun just to make fun and create a loud scene of gay-ism and Public Display of Affection
- I went around with Janet to homes to volunteer our service. However, it just made me feel that it's difficult to perform voluntarism in Singapore. Janet, let's just keep trying =)
- I had my first lesson on Psychology and have 2 girls that pretty pretty in my group =) oh, one is also quite out-going!
- I realised that when Indian men hold hands, they might not be gay.
- I had my Bishan run and almost felt like my leg muscles are gonna burst into bits and pieces of blood and flesh along the road. I guess i really got to buck up.
- I went back to KCP for CPL promotion test. The feeling is pretty strange. I would leave the standard of the test aside, but it's more of the second home?
- Farhan and myself apprehended a thief. There's only one word to discribe the feeling. 'SHIOK'. Now, i really considering Policing.
- Had unit meeting after many n months.
- Both Janet and myself have set an aim, which is to be part of the Tennis Club Committee. Ironically, we haven't been really regular on our attendance there.
- I'm getting back my EM3B (Maths) paper later today and I'm really kinda worried.
- My nose have been running for the past few hours ever since i stepped out from my shower and i think i've caught a cold.
- I'm still chatting with Janet at 1:26am when she usually sleeps at 9pm. =\ i wondered what resulted the change.
- It's friday tomorrow and i'm going to parade.
- Good-Bye.
I seriously do not want to have another blog post expressing my feelings of vulnerable friendships and detached connections. I know that no one is forcing me to have a blog post about it, but the whole thing I have in my mind now is the whole friendship word.
Perhaps i have been avoiding this whole friendship issue, thinking that I'll move on and have already move on but till now, i realised that i haven't achieved that.
It's this living-in-denial mentality that made me able to self-console, look forward to each day with anticipation and casting those problems at the back of my head. It's pretty dumb i know, but looking back now, it seems like so naive and childish. I just realised how blessed i am with those god-given egoistic feelings. I'm making full use of it without even any effort. =\
Mr Tan had a talk with me just now, he shared with me his life experiences that i feel is really really applicable to what i'm feeling. The closer friends are to each other, the greater the conflict will more likely to be. Well, ironic it seems to be, but somehow, i feel that it's pretty true. Close friends should be knowing each other well enough to the extent of understanding each other. It might seem pretty positive about that sentence, however, when there's a conflict, which arises easily, it gets pretty difficult to resolve, which for some reasons should be easy to solve since they are close friends. Ok, now it seems more of a contradicting sentence than a ironic sentence. Anyway, he post me a question, "are you able to let it go?".
Alright, i'm still unable to draw out any conclusion for this whole thing. Well, it not so much of unable to do it, but it's more of a I do not have to courage to draw any conclusion.
ohwell. sometimes it's really difficult to keep the faith and give all out for this word with a vague definition called friendship.
i learnt something new today.
In india, it's common for people of the same sex to hold hands, especially for the males.
therefore, when you see 2 indians holding hands, please do not conclude that they are gay. Give them a chance, they might just be straight.
I've been trying desperately to understand myself these few days. It's weird to be feeling is such unexplainable manner. The feeling is just like something that you feel like buying at one second and you all of a sudden do not feel like buying at the next second. I wouldn't deem it as indecisiveness though it might sound very like it, but i wouldn't deny the possibly of denial.
I'm now like an aimless soul that do not know what i'm feeling but the only thing i'm doing is to TRY and make the people around me happy.
It's pretty pathetic i understand, i might very well be a beast that do not have feelings, beast might have feelings too. =\
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Went out to celebrate Edi's 21st Birthday with the MOT1 people. Thinking about it, it started off with HI-BYES with them, and we started to know each other better with occasional disturbing and teasing of the girls. Now, we went to watch a movie, in such random situation. =) Edi's celebration was good and i'm happy cause we talked, and had fun (i Guess) but well, at least it's a step forward. =D
