I realise that I've been typing Suzz's name in every post. She's someone I love. My relative, my golden snitch.
(Harry P. Haha)
So this post's for you my dear one!
Even though you are still young, I think you have matured as a woman. The things we exchange, you are definitely someone invaluable. You have reminded me of me when I was your age. For the past few years we've talked in secret, without letting anyone of the family members know, I am touched by your unconditional feelings towards me. My family has lived outside with no connections to the current. Probably my dad has married my mum. Inter racial marriages weren't exactly a good idea last time. Look at us, we're of different races, yet still related by blood! You are the only family person I know, yet I think you alone can be worth 10s of others. 1 of you is enough to make me happy. (this is getting mushier and lesbo. haha) Don't turn on the taps now Sue, I have more things to write about you.
Remember last year when we went to the Archipelago? You never had Irish beer and you were soo tipsy, some stranger asked you for your number and I remembered what you said. 'You suck.'
It made me laugh till my stomach churns. I remembered during one of the photoshoots, I had extra film and you were strutting your stuff. I think you are made for expressive shots! You begged me to photoshop your figure to an 'acceptable' weight, you were soo ecstatic that you wanted that figure so much. You know what? I'm pretty sure they are people who love you just the way you are. Sue, you are no longer what you think you are or whom you thought you'd be. You are you.
I think you need to set your priorities straight. Think about what is important. The people that is playing a big part in your life, the people you can rely on, the people you love. Never have second thoughts, go on with your gut feeling. Do what you need to do. I am very sure you can succeed if you know what you are working towards. I think through blogging, I can further explain things to you. You know I'm not a great conversationalist. I think you are going to have to go through some twist and turns soon.I hope that you are prepared and be strong my dear one. Whatever tribulations life could set on you, I'm sure with the right attitude, you can make it.
You have grown to be one fine young woman (of power) =P
Well, not today. Haha. I arrived back to homeground on Wednesday. This is a little late to blog but ever since I reached here, I have calls her and there, and everywhere! Asking me to do field assignments, research on the upcoming trends. I've been busy.Whoopeedo! I love bubbles. Freda told me I was crazy when I bought a bubble bottle from Toys R Us. I think I look cute. :(
Let me have my happy moment here please?
Suz, come by my place on Friday! I have a tea parteh.
Watched the sunrise with Dee today at the beach. I misplaced my bikini. My US$136 bikini, GONE.
I bought a cheap one for 10000 baht in the morning. The weather's good, I've became tanner and it's all good baby.
Went snorkelling in the shallow bays with Dee, Ken didn't join as he is sick. Went sightseeing in a boat. Tonight, maybe, we'll go watch turtle laying eggs? I don't know whether it's the season yet. I think I may have to bribe. It's a dirty country. Speaking of dirty, my phone got stolen and Ken filed a really unnecessary report. Ken's been inside his room for the whole day, except for meals. Street food (1/2 developed dead chicken egg) made his stomach upset. Getting sick abroad is horrible. I remember going to Korea once with dad and I had a really horrible flu that took me 4 days to heal from. Mum, Dad. I miss you two. Wish you were here.
Dinner's in an hour. Wonder what's in store this time!?
It's my 3rd day here and what can I say? Thailand's great. The first day, Ken faked that he lost my passport. You have no idea how angry I was. Throwed tempers at him, hurled insults because, losing your passport is the LAST thing that you ever want to happen while you're abroad. When I reached Anantara after a really, really long bus ride that cost my spine to be in such a pain..the staffs were welcoming and gave us nice garlands and lead us to the suites. And Suz, we're living in separate rooms. Don't hope so much.
Anyway, Dee is pretty much docile. She has been calling her boyfriend and talking for long hours. Can't blame her, she has never seen his face for 2 months since he's also outstationed in Wales. Dang, kinda miss those I-miss-my-booboo feelings. Well, Ken has been hinting greatly which I appear so ignorant to. Things that were obvious and his body language. What can I say? I'm a major in Sociology back in university. Ken has been trying too hard. Maybe I'm too tough on him. This is not 'hard to get.'
It's, 'I don't want to get.'
He should just be normal. I think Men who tries too hard will end up failing whilst pinning high hopes on themselves as they know they can get a certain girl that he likes. This concludes Men's predatory behaviour, animal instincts. That Men can prey on Women and use such blatant techniques. Ohmy, they sound like beasts to me. Well, Sociology taught me a little of this. Can't really remember the lectures Miss Herreira (sp?) keep talking about. I was such a smart slacker back then. I know, it's only 1-2 years back. I think I contradicted myself in this post but I seriously am just typing freely, using the free internet with my vaio while the other two went to prepare themselves for dinner. I think I should go now to. I don't want to be the late one again.
Suz, yelllllllllllllllllp. Freda. I need you now. NOW!
Work's been good. Portfolio's a success, but the real work has yet to be done. Well, Reece offered 5 days leave for me. Probably I've been working too hard. Well, I'm heading to Koh Samui, Thailand with Ken and Dee tomorrow. Heading by bus, because plane tickets are fully booked. and it's last minute also. But lucky for us, Dee booked our choice of the Anantara Resort. I like! Suites here I come! :) Suz, sorry if it's impromptu but I just have to 'communicate' to you through here. Love you and take care little one!
Saturday night - supposed to be out dating and having fun with my colleagues but what did I do today? Woke up, cancelled plans, sleep more, read and rented a sad love story from Videoezy. Of all titles, my itchy hands had to chose, 'A Walk To Remember.' That show can make any woman cry! The media is always using such unorthordox methods but I praised them because it works on dates. It's a sure fire way to make girls cry. I remember watching this show with Teddy last time at a cinema and my tears were endless. (and you know what happens next..unless you're slow in the mind) Paul, I hope this works for you. Germaine called me today, she has some signs of a particular STI. She cried soo much, telling me it was just a one night stand with a charming stranger. I couldn't help but pity that girl but on the other hand..it was also her fault that she treats sex as a casual thing. In any way, there's still two sides to every story.
Suz, you better don't do that. You're still young. :(
Way to go Mandy, this is your single life.
New blog under new e-mail address.
Freda, I caught Ken glancing at me 6 times today! I have a bad feeling about this. He's quite the player. Woman, don't even think about it. Freda, help me! I'm falling for older men! I'm a full-grown adult with countless responsibilities. Put it in this mind of yours! Perhaps this is just an another infatuation. I still look like a kid, especially standing beside Suzzz. She's my distant relative, my little confidant. She's young yet mature at times, I can't believe that is her age! My fashion aide. Less is More, her motto. Okay, why am I talking about her? Her insecurities are soo cute. She's clumsy, random and frisky. She's willing to wake up at 4 AM IN THE MORNING TO RUN. I need my beauty sleep.
She's insane I tell you. When I need someone to talk to, she will hurry to my apartment. Mind you, I stay at West Coast. She travels all the way to see me and can even bring my sin-ish treats to make me happy. She's soo unconditional, she could love everybody like that if she wants to. She made me realise how much fun I had when I was young. Girl, I really do hope you find someone to love soon before I leave in December. (-v-)
Mark, my ex has made me realise how many wrong men I've encountered soo far. Men who wanted me for sex, men who afraid of commitments. I blame myself for being with them, so I can't fully blame them. I've lost it once with Teddy. My once sweetheart of 5 years. Truthfully, I couldn't forget you. Even though we had big arguments, we'll make it up and learn from it. Teddy, I hope your happy studying in the States. Ever since Teddy left sometime back, I've been lost. Finding for desperate company, someone to hold on to. I've learnt that I held onto the wrong people. I can't continue this. I'm not getting younger. I want to have kids. Freda, I know what you're thinking. 'She needs genuine help on the love side,' You never fail to kick me back to reality. I envy you, 2 kids at the age of 28.
I have a 10 page fashion spread to be done by next month and I'm running out of time. This new client of mine demands details and I want an inspiration. Annie, you're in this with me girl. Let's get our creative juices flowing, finish this up and I'll bring you to the Archipelago soon!
Freda! Call me, I want to go to Munich for Oktoberfest. You choose this year okay?
Munich, Amsterdam or Seoul?
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